this is a poem that I wrote when I was feeling really emo over the fact that my best friend is gonna leave since he’s graduating…I was thinking about how I’d be feeling when he won’t be around anymore and I came up with this. Thought i’d share. 

There is none but space I feel,
The emptiness that embraces me into nothingness.
I violently shudder as the cold breeze brushes against my back,
I am alone again.

My mind hallucinates of your presence,
when the wind smells of your cologne
It drives me mad when in my head, I hear your voice
you’re always on my mind as if i had no choice

Where are you?
My hands are longing for yours
yearning for that sweet embrace
All I can ever do is dream of your warmth
And wait ‘til i see you again.

PS.
yes, i do love this guy.
i’ll miss him lots when he’s gone.

Doesn’t mean I don’t think about you. Doesn’t mean I don’t check up on you. Doesn’t mean I don’t worry and wonder about how you are doing. Doesn’t mean I don’t care about you anymore.

Dearest James,

Looking back at the memories and thinking about what used to be, I realize how grateful I am to have had those moments with you.
Even if now, they are only meant to be remembered.

I’ll miss you. For sure.
BUT Before I set you free, I wanna thank you for all those times that you were there when no one else was. For listening. For holding my hand. For making me smile. For treating me well, and most of all..
THANK YOU, FOR LOVING ME.

Your love has made me feel honored, and special. Your love is pure, innocent and true. Your heart is real and warm, Full of Love indeed. I will never forget you.

You deserve someone that will give you the same kind of love that you offer. But I’m afraid that person cannot be me.

I’m so sorry.
For a lot of reasons I am deeply sorry.
I’ve caused you so much pain and sorrow lately, that I’ve decided to gather all my courage and finally tell you the truth, and set you free from waiting on me…
I have lead you on, and wasted your time for too long. I did not intend to use you for my own selfish reasons, but I eventually did. And I am terribly ashamed of what I’ve done.

Whenever you look me in the eye with that sincere smile of yours and tell me things to make me happy, It kills me. Knowing that a person so kind and loving as you, loves a person so selfish and cruel as me.

You deserve so much better!
You deserve someone that will tell you that you are their reason to live each day. Someone that will look you in the eye and tell you that she loves you, and will love you each and everyday of forever.
And I’m so sorry for making you think that that person could be me.
But I can’t be.
I thought I could when I tried.. But i can’t.
For my own personal conflicts, I can’t fulfill the task of giving you back the same love you give to me everyday.

So I am setting you free!
Don’t waste your time on me anymore.
Forget about me and go. Find someone that will love you genuinely, and wholeheartedly. I wish for you to find the love that you truly deserve.

It would be too selfish of me if I asked you if we could still be friends, but I want you to know that despite this heartbreaking closure, you will always be that one guy that made me find my way back into the beat of love when I lost it.

I wish you the best in life!

Love,
Katherine